Friday, September 30, 2011

nightmare week

I had been sick in bed with a high fever for 6 days.
My temperature was almost 40℃.
I was shivering because of killing high fever, splitting headache and stomach trouble still have hurt me.
When I shivered with cold, I thought I was going to die.
I lost my appetite though I love eating!
Now I'm recovering from bad condition.

What will you do this weekend?
My plan is going to a hot-spring resort to recover my health.

My health often worsens at the turn of the seasons.
Autumn has come!
Please take care of your health, especially in this mornings and evenings cold.

September 15th


Happy first birthday to だんご!!!

Friday, September 9, 2011

"understand"

How much do we understand others?
How much...?

English word understand is made up of "under" and "stand".

Do you understand others, standing under them?
And, do I?

It's painful not to be understood by others.
The opposite is also said.
It's really regrettable not to understand others.

I want my family to be happy.
I want to understand my family.
And I want them to recover from broken hearts.

Thursday, September 8, 2011

aroma pot

Birthday Present from my sister Ayami

Tuesday, September 6, 2011

relative happiness

No one knows what will make people happy in the end.
Even so I could live a happy life, I think so now.
I've never known such a big feeling in my heart.
I was so in love with him. I couldn't help myself.

Ten years ago...
A big boy appeared in my life.
Though I don't remember his first impressions, somehow one day I was charmed by him.
We had been going out between a long distance for a short time.

About seven years later...
We met again and enjoyed loaches cooked in a pottery casserole.
Don't you think it's without atmosphere?
But I was charmed by him intensely again.
Reminiscing while looking at pictures with him, loaches in our stomaches might connect us.
After graduation, I got a job in a small town of loaches.

And last summer...
I went to Tokyo on business, and met him again.
No motter how distant it was between us, I just had to get back together again.
He readily consented to my selfish proposal.

42 days...
It has been 1 year and 13 days since we went out with each other.
How many do you think the days we spent with: 42 days in about 1 year.
Even if I couldn't meet him when I wanted, e-mails from him and his voice through a phone were emotional supports.
I appreciate all the thoughtfulness he gave me.

Last fall...
Something had snowballed and my physical condition (maybe mental too) started to collapse.
I was absent from work sometimes because of bad condition.
I suffer from automatic imbalance.
It's hard to tell the symptom, I feel like to have a bomb in my stomach.

When I'm sad, tired, painful and in other bad conditions, he was special and who supported me first.
He gave me warm hearts.

I wonder if I could support him.
I wonder if he felt happy with me.
Recently he has been surely disgusted by my manner.
I hate myself.

Person can't become a new person easily.
I want to become a person who cares the feelings of others.
What's the best thing???

I really appreciate what he has done for me.
Thank you so much.

Saturday, September 3, 2011