''Ding-Dong!!''

I've won assorted fruits in season.
It consists of two kiwis, a mango, an apple, two grapefruits and two oranges.
My sister is fond of mangos.
She must be pleased with it.
I'm out of luck these days.
I want to pile up happiness like this even though they are tiny.

the source of power

I visited a friend of mine in the hospital today.
The Halloween pumpkin box was for her.
I put millet dumplings, a specialty of my home town Okayama, into it.

She is very positive though she had a traffic accident.
Her smile always gives me heart.
Thanks, Kiyomi!!!
Let's travel again someday!

Opening the box...

Guess what's put into this box!

silver week

In Japan people have five days off in a row.
Are you planning to go somewhere during this consecutive holidays?
I have no plan yet.
I intend to spend all my time on preparing for a national examination.
It's a gray week rather than silver.

emotional conflict

I hope to do what I want to do.
But then, I know it's not true happiness to have always my way.
Many people support me and keep me alive.
However, the day may come when I will act on instinct alone.

down and up...but, down again

I think I'm too simple.
I even wonder if I'm a unicellular animal.
As most people will get hurt by trifling matters, my heart is enough fragile to be damaged.

"Don't be pressimistic."
"Some gods may let you down, but others will pick you up."
"Deep valleys, high mountains."
"No nights without mornings."
"The sun always rises in the east."

These words are all from my father.
I DO understand what he wants to say.
But...
Any words of comfort or encouragement don't reach my ears.
I hate to admit it, I can't accept his words.

No end of job-hunting is to make me a nervous wreck.
A splitting headache is becoming chronic to me nowadays.
When will what I've done be paid off???

weakness of my mind

It caused anxiety and overeating to me.
I'm impatient about job-hunting and at a standstill.
"It's all over for me! I can't understand how to get employment in my choise company."
I felt so.

I want to be positive and tough morally.

Whenever something doesn't go fine, I surely dig up my past; when in university.
I do know that it's nonsense to think such a thing.
But I can't help being foolish.

"If I had not quit university, would the companies that turned down me have employed me?"

No matter how much I appeal myself of today, my words are not persuasive and may sound like excuses.
I regret my cowardliness.

My spiritual home...it's my mother.
I have derived from the mere fact of her existence, a great sense of inward security.

I have to keep challenging me.
To overcome myself!

vicious circle

Every little thing has annoyed me and I just want to give up on myself lately.
I feel an urge to forget anything and go away.

My close friends often admire.
"You are a hard worker!"
My mother also says.
"Don't worry! You are tough."

I want to escape from reality.
I don't work hard. I'm not tough.

Crossroads

When I'm sad,
When I'm tired,
When I'm painful...

When I'm cool, I feel something.

Will my way be right?
Was my choise a big error?

My job-hunting have reached a complete deadlock.

I did do my all best.
But...

My father said to me.
"All storms blow over eventually."

His word is too cruel!!!
How much must I try and wait???

I have no idea.

Curry, Curry...and Curry

Good evening!
To me this week was "Curry Week".

Curry and Tofu










To my surprise, it's really good!

Curry and Somen










So-so!

Curry and Mochi

Nan bread in the Japanese style!

Curry and Rice

Royal combination!




The more curry is stewed, the more it becomes delicious.
I like curry in third days.

Under Repair

My cellphone cracked!

I have to use this substitute while repairing.

It's a little hard to use another.

a rose bud

I got a mail from my mother this morning.
A photograph was included with her mail.


This is a flower pot I gave her on last Mother's Day.
A bud of the rose are beginning to open up.
I hope it will bloom beautifully.

And I'd like a piece of that luck for my job-hunting...